im so fed up with blogger right now`
i dont know what i had pressed but`im feeling so irritated !
havent been blogging for days` i was too busy with
school` project and last but not least` BASKETBALL ! =)

well` my small business management project 1`scored 78/100 !
project 2 scored 92/100 ! as for project 3`im still doing right now ! =P
i scored 79.4/100 for my office communication !
i need 0.6 marks to get an A ! =(
anyway` bad news` i got debar from my customers relation exams
due to bad attendance`but well` im going to appeal it after so much
things had happened between me and my teacher`im not going to post
what had happened and why i changed my mind to appeal` if not`
im going to get fed up again` but in conclusion` im appealing !
im sorry to those people who were worried about me` 对不起 !
everything is fine now` =)

today` i stayed at home the whole day after im dismissed from school`
didnt really want to attend school today`
but come to think of my attendance`i went !
im lacking of sleep again ! so`later on` im going to have an early rest`
because i intend to sleep until tomorrow afternoon at around 2pm`
as i still need to go for basketball training` =/
ohdamn` im down with fever`flu`sore throat and coughing again !
i cant afford to get sick now because i still left alot of things undone !
but well` hope i can recover as soon as possible ! =)
im hungry ! i havent have my dinner yet ! =(
my parents are not at home` my maid is doing her chores right now`
so i better dont disturb`if not` things will get slower for her` hahahaas`
and im too lazy to cook ! arghhh`
anyway` i think i shall stop here`
im having bad headache now ! so goodbye !

AMANADA` take good care of yourself and get well soon ! =)
JOYCE` i hope you are doing fine now !

im giving up on what im holding on right now ?
because i cant seem to know what you are thinking` ahhaa

ball`ball`ball and more balling`
and i doesnt see myself improving since that day ?!
or should i say` i didnt improve at all ?
how am i going to deal with my bad habits that lead to mistake !
why am i keep on repeating the mistakes even though i know its wrong ?!
sometimes` i really feel like giving up` but i cant`
i trained so hard for this coming youth cup` although i know`
my skills is still not that good ! i know it all long`
but i think you all just cant understand my feeling on how much i wanted to play well`
i accepted people comments towards me` after hearing the comments or whatever`
im not showing black face but im thinking about it`
please understand me more ! hahaas`=P`
well` 2 to 3 weeks more to youth cup ! im feeling nervous` but`
UNDER 18s ` LETS JIAYOU TOGETHER ! =D
stay calm when we are on court ! LOLS` i think i should say this to myself first` hahaas

what "daddy" said was right`
attitude comes with behavior first`
changing attitude doesnt mean you have changed your behavior`
but once you changed your behavior` you changed your attitude`
after hearing this` i have lot of things in my mind`but in conclusion`
im going to start changing my behavior first` although i know its difficult
but im willing to give it a try` and i must really change my behavior because
i want to change my fucking attitude towards life or whatever ! hahaas
i learned lot of things that regarding life and how to make it better by the
law of attraction` as you can see` i learned and i didnt apply it !
its going to be a waste if i didnt apply it to life` so` from now on`
im going to use it ` ohya` by the way` LAW OF ATTRACTION is a very good book !
want to know what the book is saying ? go and read it up yourself ! =P
it wont waste your time reading up this book because its a best book that i ever read ! =D

i want to improve`
i dont wish to see you all feel disappointed in me again and again`
i dont want people to look down on me` i hate this kind of feeling !
i want to play main 5 ! i must improve` the feeling of the burden of me in the team
is back again ! i dont want to have this kind of feeling anymore !
i must train harder in order for me to get rid of this feeling`beside this reason` i need to train hard enough for not letting the ball going nowhere when im doing my layup` because i always didnt bring the ball along when im running !
jiayou bahs` huang yuqing !

im still in love with this sentence`
a candle lose nothing by lighting another candle ! =)