YESTERDAY- the weather was super hot !
- fell asleep during CTR lesson` and i was sweating !!
- after school`went to nee soon east cc -location at yishun- for extra training
- trained our communication and defense`
- well` seriously i was pissed off for something` thing is alright now =)
- after training` went home with jinhui`
- reached home before 10pm` fell asleep before 10.30pm` XD
- i was too tired` ahahhahas

TODAY- woke up at 5am plus` due to the thunder and lighting`
but i went back to sleep` slept all the way til 6.20am !
i was late and i rushed like #$%^& ! hahahahaas`
4hours of school today`and i learned nothing` because i was playing with
psp and internet` =P`and seriously` i dont get what the SBM teacher is teaching` i prefer my previous teacher seriously ! at least we wont play and talk during her lesson ! everyone in class was paying attention when she taught us ! but thing is different now` hahahaas`
finished school` went to meet yuna` headed to mrt station`
and waited for ann` and off we went to causeway point !
met vana and casslyn over there` and had lunch with them at LJS`
after that` ann went back to school for lesson`
vana and casslyn came to my house while yuna went home`

played abit of mahjong and off we went to zhenghua cc`
played match with quangfong and kaixuan !
i dont know whats the score because it was a 3-legged match !
debrief and walked back to pending with joyce and ziqun`=D
talked alot of stuffs and i really missed the time that i spent with them !
stopped at pending lrt and chit-chatted because need to accompany
joyce to wait for her liang to reach jurong east ! =X
and amanda scared us ! she popped out from nowhere can !
me and joyce screamed like @#$%^&* ! LOLS
home sweet home` bathed and here i am ! LOLS`
tomorrow having training at 3.30pm` ZIQUN` better dont be late ! XD
thats all for today entry` goodbyes`
everyone` lets rest early ! =)

didnt perform well enough`
and i dont know what the hack am i doing`
seriously` i felt super disappointed in myself`
and im really feeling stress about it `
im sorry for those people who had high hope on me`
but still` i made you girls disappointed`again and again` sorry !
i have been trying my best from what i have`
i trained hard although i know to most of your think is still alright`
but i had given my best`ended up` what did i get ?
like today ? i know my skills is not very good `but ya`
i have been learning hard for my skills and what not for stamina ?
trying and trying` learning and learning`
and i know there's no improvement` but do your know that`
how much i feel for being like this ? i dont wish all this to happen too !
all i can say is` im just plain stupid ` for a low IQ and EQ person like me`
i learned things slowly` slower than others ? i guess so`
but there's nothing i can do with my stupid fucking brain to learn things so slow`
i want to be a fast learner too` i want to be fast in aborbing things much more
faster` fast in my attack ` my speed`and of course have a good stamina`
i have been trying real hard for it ? didnt i ? but sometimes my legs just wont listen !
im sorry if i had made the team worst` i know im a burden in court`
example` people are playing 5 vs 5` but due to me` we are playing 5 vs 4 ?
i know i shouldnt say all this` but this is what im thinking right now`
and i know i shouldnt even thought of it `
anyway for this post` i have no offence to anyone` im just typing out how i feel`
but if you are offender` then im sorry `
i really feel like crying now`