FUCK ! FUCK ! FUCK !!
im sorry to use this word now`
but i really want to shout it out but i cant`
and im here to vent my anger ?!
i feel so sad that why everyone still treat me as a kid ?
why ?! can someone just tell me that ?

just now i woke up out of sudden and realised that
i still got things that havent settle yet`
and i keep worrying that why my sister havent reply me`
i dont know how should i start to talk about this matter`
but i just feel so sad ?! and i really regretted for not going back
for about half a year` but now` im given a chance to go and learn
more at KL` i cant go because my father asked me to finish my
studies first`` as he dont want me to multi-task too many things
at a time` and i really got nothing more to say`
he dont allow means dont allow` so no point saying any further`
i suddenly felt that` i still need to improve on my respect towards
many people` especially my parents and my sisters` =)
and finally my sister told me that im a good girl` if not
she always keep saying what kind of friends you mix with so on`
but now` i think she really saw changes in me ? hahaa`

i cant get back to sleep now` so i intend to watch 斗牛要不要 !!
im going to continue the episode `` =))
so byes`