i dont know why i dont feel tired during midnight``
maybe i can go and become owl one day`` hahaa``
it has been raining nowadays``
and i just checked the weather for the next ten days``
its going to rain all this while``
i think now is the raining season`` haha``
if dont believe`` just go to msn.com to check the weather``=)
yesterday didnt discuss about the basketball camp issue``
as ms pek was not free`` so we changed it to this coming wednesday`` as ms pek also want us to stay back cause she's going to teach us maths``
i still havent get back my english prelim paper``
i hope mr lam will give it to us later on``
i seriously cant wait to see my marks although i know i failed``
ms phay going to give us social studies short test later``
and i havent study yet`` OH MY !!
priscilla coming to my house after school``
and i think i will be sleeping again while she's using my computer``haha

seriously`` i dont know what nowdays i have been thinking``
i still dont know what i want``and the path i'm going to choose`
just give me some more time to think about it``
whatever path i'm going to choose`` i still wont give up the
dream which i'm hoping for`` and its my childhood dream``
i'm going to make it real and not just a dream``
i really do hope that`` you guys have understand me``
but it shows that`` you all havent really understand me yet``
no matter how much i'm trying to say`` its going to be the
same conclusion`` so what the point of saying so much``
you all still think that i'm still the last time me``
but i can confirm that`` I'M NOT !!
just give me some time to think about it`` thanks``

as for my family`` i think i should change my attitude towards my family members as i dont want them to think that``i'm a person who always think that friends is more important`` i'm going to change their thinking towards this``sometime i really do think that friends is important but of course is not always``if i want them to understand me more`` i think i shall do all the communication`` haha``and dont always give the "anti-scoial" face to them`` this is what i'm thinking right now`` and i hope its right for me to do it``haha`` i really wish to see the family which have warmth again``and filled with love`care and concern`` haha`` i dont want this kind of family situation now`` i really dont know how much longer i can hold``its stress living in this kind of situation`` so i'm going to change it although i know the chances is very low``but if you didnt try` you wont know whats the outcome`` so`` i'm going to give it a try``
although i dont like my family situation now and my father`` i dont mind trying` maybe some day`` i'm going to change the impression of my father``who knows`HAHAS``

alright alright``saying about those stuff``
i'm worried for my N LEVEL the most``
LEFT 12DAYS TOWARDS N LEVEL !! i'm super nervous !!
as on the 3rd / 4th / 5th of september``
we are going to take our english/ chinese / social studies papers !! oh my`` i'm going to study hard now and not play hard``haa`
shall keep studying right now``if not` i'm going to regret it for sure`if i know i tried my best and i still didnt make it`` at least i know i did try`` so i will have no regret about it`` hahaa``going to study my social studies short test now`` if not i'm going to fail for sure`` hahaa`` so byes`` XD
sorry for the long post`` =D

AFTER N LEVEL CANNOT DYE HAIR !! IF DYE`` CANNOT GO BACK FOR TRAINING !! THE TIME I ALWAYS HOPING FOR IS GONE NOW !! =(